March 14th 2014

Well as usually it has been a while since I have last posted a blog!  I actually kind of forget that I use to blog, but then when I start watching others vlogs or reading blogs I think how I would love to blog...then I remember oh yeah I totally have a blog!  But anyways, so much has been going on in our lives lately!  Well the biggest news of all is that on March 14th we found out we were expecting again!    It was truly the most exciting day!  After almost 2 years of trying and one miscarriage we found out we were pregnant!  I guess I can tell you the story!  So after us stopping trying after November, we decided in February we were finally ready to try again.  We had decided to stop trying because I was so unhappy about my weight and even worse I was obsessed with getting pregnant and was not trusting in the Lord AT ALL!  Well by the beginning of February I had lost a great a amount of weight and I had completely changed my attitude of getting pregnant!  I truly had started trusting in the Lord completely about getting pregnant.  I just knew it was going to happen...if not soon...someday and I was completely fine with that.  I will tell you this though, the day after I ovulated....I KNEW IT!  I truly knew I was pregnant!  I obviously had not gotten the positive test, but I just had this calming feeling and I was just calm and knew.  So of coarse though I still had the two week wait of seeing that positive test!  Well like most women who are trying to conceive I was addicted to peeing on the stick...haha!  I literally bought like 10 $1 test and thought I would just pee on those everyday until the day I was suppose to start...then if I missed my period and had not gotten a positive I would buy good ones and test!  Well on Friday the 14th of March, like I had been doing every day for the past like week or so I woke up...peed in a cup...and took the test....not surprised it said negative I then threw it away!  I was still 3 or 4 days early so I wasn't to bummed because I have never gotten an early positive!  Well for some reason that day I was just antsy about taking a test..that day I had gotten some of the good tests at Walgreens and around 3:30 p.m. I just decided...why not...I am just going to take one!  I hadn't peed in a while so I thought maybe there is some hcg i my system to get a positive if I am pregnant!  Jonathan had just gotten home, but I didn't want him knowing I was taking a test!  So right before he had come upstairs I took the test...I barely looked at it and I literally saw the very faintest line I think visible to  the eye!  But if you get a positive at all...its a positive!  If there is a faint line it means there is hcg in your system!  So I kind of ignored it because I had barely processed so I didn't get to excited, bc I didn't get to look at it that well...and then of coarse Jonathan walks upstairs and changes because he wants to go run...so I hide the test real quick...and of all the times he wants to talk(which I love talking to my husband) but he like just wants to hang out and talk before he goes and runs!  I just wanted him to get out of our room so that I could look at the stinking test again!  So he finally went to go run...I looked at the test and it still looked about the same!  So I was excited, but the line was literally the faintest line I think that is possible...so I just thought...ok I will wait a few more hours and test again and maybe it will be a little more clear!  So that's exactly what I did!  About an hour or two later I tested again!  Mind you this entire time we have been trying to get pregnant I always wanted to find out myself and then do something fun for Jonathan to tell him we were pregnant.  Well after I took that next test....it was a clear positive!  I could NOT BELIEVE IT!  He was upstairs in our room, so I got a chalkboard out and the video camera(which was almost dead) and told the camera I was pregnant and walked upstairs and told him with the camera!  It died right after I told him, but he was in shock...he was like uh huh...no way...are you serious?  I was shaking and crying and all I kept saying all night was I knew it!  I knew it!  I told Jonathan that since the day after ovulation I truly new I was pregnant!  But what was even more amazing, was that when I got that more clear positive...I literally had this peace that God gave me telling me just relax...everything is going to be ok!  I am 21 weeks pregnant now and have not worried about this pregnancy at all!  The Lord gave me the peace I needed the second I found out I was pregnant!  So now I am 21 weeks pregnant with our 3rd baby and due on Thanksgiving day November 27th!  My babies come early, so I am thinking she will be here sometime at the beginning of November!  I really am going to keep up with blogging again!  There are so many things I have to write about and things on my mind!  I hope you all have a wonderful night and week!  GOD IS SO GOOD!

I wish all famous athletes/famous people were like KD!

Hello everyone!  Hope all ya'lls day is going wonderful so far!  Just a quick thought this morning before I get to working on finishing up my surprise of re-doing my mother-in-laws house(I will post pictures and explain in another blog)  I unfortunately was unable to watch the Thunder/Miami game last night (again bc I am finishing my surprise for my MIL) but I knew we ended up beating them good, so I wanted to watch highlights on ESPN!  Anyways, I always love when they interview KD because he seems to be a great guy...and I LOVE how open he is about his faith and love for our savior!  Anyways an ESPN lady was interviewing him after the big win...and the final question she asked was, "What goes into a streak to get you to the level you've been at these last 12 games...what goes into that?"  KD's exact response was...."GOD that's all I can say...Jesus Christ!"  The lady kind of snickered and said, "So it has nothing to do with you?" KD responds "Nah, nothing...that's all him!"  I mean WOW!  Goosebumps covered...and of coarse if you know me...I started crying!  I have watched it about 5 times so far!  It is just so amazing for someone like him to be so open about his faith...he is someone I would be proud for my children to look up to him!  The way God works is just so overwhelmingly AMAZING to me...as I type this it is almost hard to breath because the presence and power of the Lord is so amazing and here!  For someone to be as great of player as KD...I look at him and how good he is and think...how can someone not believe in the Lord?  Him being so good and telling everyone it is only because of GOD...I mean wow!  I feel that same way when I hear our amazing Pastor Craig Groschel speak...I literally listen to the things that come out of his mouth and think...I mean if this is not proof that God is real...I don't know what is!  The messages Craig Groschel speaks are so powerful....no one could be giving him that but the Lord!  Anyways... just a quick thought I had!  Hope you all continue to have a blessed day!  GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!  Also you should come check out my church this weekend!  Life Church...this weekend they are doing a special they do every year on superbowl  weekend called 30 second theology!  Something you don't want to miss!

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Saturday 5:00 and 6:30
Sunday 8:30, 10:00, 11:30, 1:00. or 6:00

Brittany

Blogging is on my heart right now...so here it goes...a little bit of everything!

Well Well!  It has been quite sometime since I last blogged!  I think about it often, but for some reason..I don't make the time for it!  In the past my blog has been all about my struggles with my weight and just trying to get healthy, but I decided a couple months ago I wanted to start blogging again, but so much has changed since I last blogged that I decided to change the title of my blog to Giving it ALL to HIM!  So it will be more just about my life etc.  I don't even know if people will read this blog because I no longer have FB so I don't even know if people will know I posted, but either way I just love putting my thoughts down!  So lets see.. when I last stopped blogging after my final weigh in with the biggest loser competition I had lost a good amount of weight and was feeling pretty good:)  Shortly after...so in about April/May 2012 we decided we were ready to start trying for another baby!  I think we both assumed that it would be pretty easy to get pregnant considering the fact that it was so easy for the 1st two!  So to make a pretty long story...shorter... we began trying...over the next 7 to 8 months I became so obsessed and overwhelmed with getting pregnant(since we had not yet conceived) that when we FINALLY got the BIG PAT POSITIVE pregnancy test in December...I had let my weight get all the way back up to what I had started the biggest loser at (215 pounds)  I was annoyed with my weight, but was so happy that we were finally PREGNANT!  So on December 19th, 2012 we found out we were pregnant with baby number 3!  Also if you didn't know.. Jonathan and I want a big family...4 at least and maybe and hopefully more!  Man I was so shocked as to how it took us so long to get pregnant for the 3rd time but felt so relieved that I finally was!  Well, I kind of had a sick feeling from the beginning about this pregnancy and didn't know why, but I just ignored it bc I didn't want to stress daily about it until I went to my first appointment!  Because my doctor that delivered Molly which was my doctor at the time I got pregnant again...is for some reason one of the most popular doctor in OKC my first doctors appointment was not until I was almost 12 weeks(yes I know..I hated waiting that long)   But luckily one of our family friends who is a sonographer(I don't know if that is the right term..sorry) at about 8 weeks we had her check everything out just to see if I was right on my dates etc.!  If you have ever been pregnant you know how stressful that first appointment is just to make sure everything is ok!  We were so excited to make sure I was going along great (since my apt. was still 4 weeks away. can you tell I'm still bitter about that haha) so when she did the ultrasound (she did a regular one then had to do the other kind if you know what I mean)  She saw that everything that needed to be there was there, except a baby...and she said that was completely normal because I was only 5 and a half weeks along!  Well that was my first clue...we had been trying for 8 months and I knew how long my cycles were etc. so I knew that there was ABSOLUTELY NO way I was only 5 and a half weeks along, but she said she sees this often that people just don't know that they ovulate later than they think etc. etc. and not to stress!  So of coarse I call my doctor the next day and tell them what happened...and the day after that I had an appointment to go in a see them!  They did an internal ultra sound as well and said everything looked fine just no sight of baby yet which is regular for being only 5 and a half weeks( I told them thought I was farther) did blood work everything came back good...I was pregnant but low progesterone so gave me medicine for that...and to come back in one week and we will check it out again see if it has progressed etc.  So from there it was just a waiting game each week!  So to kind of finish getting to the miscarriage up..I came back each week for 2 or 3 more weeks...everything kept progressing, but not sign of baby (or viable pregnancy) yet and then finally when I was about 11 and a half weeks...they finally said it was a miscarriage.  Which from the very first appointment with our friend when I was almost 8 weeks along...I said if it is a miscarriage that  is ok...I just want to deal with it a no that is what it is instead of waiting to find out!  Well unfortunately it was about a 4 or 5 week thing until I knew for sure I had miscarried:(  Like I said, I kind of had a feeling from the very beginning, but we dealt with it and moved on.  We still knew God was good and that he had a plan!  So over the next several months of 2013 (my miscarriage was at the very end of Jan. 2013)  we were all over the place with trying to get pregnant.  We both wanted a baby so badly, but I was so so so very unhappy with my weight that I would stress and be obsessed with getting pregnant...which led to no weight loss..if anything gain!  I wanted a baby more than anything, but at the same exact time...I wanted to lose weight and get healthy more than anything!  So finally after trying in Nov. 2013 I decided NO MORE!  I was finally kind of on track with my weight and all me obsessing over getting pregnant does to me is makes me not focus on myself!  I am only 29 years old...If I am healthy...I don't care if I am 40 and having my last kid (which will hopefully be number 6...I know we are crazy, but we both feel we are suppose to have a big family)  So now today is January 23, 2014 and since about mid to End of November...I am down from 217.2 pounds to 188.2 pounds...a total of 29 pounds!  And let me tell you something...I have lost weight before, obviously if you followed my blog before you know I lost 37 pounds with biggest loser, but I have approached it and lost the weight completely different than I ever have!  When I did the biggest loser....I allowed myself nothing...I at chicken and broccoli EVERY SINGLE meal (including breakfast)  Obviously that is not realistic, but at the time I told myself...well once I get to my goal weight I can change things up or start eating some things I actually want to eat..  Well let me be the first to tell you that....that is NOT how it works!  I have approached my weight and eating habits more from my mind this time!  I have finally learned it is all in my head!  It is sad now seeing so many people doing it a way that in the long run WILL NOT WORK!  I now know that I will never get to my goal weight  and be done with eating healthy or clean....it will be something I have to do for the rest of my life!  My amazing and talented sister in law took pictures of us all at the beginning of November as a gift to my mother in law for Christmas and it was the pictures we were going to use for our Christmas cards.  When she sent me the pictures I had a huge breakdown, because I knew I was big and had gained weight, but what I saw in the mirror was NOT even close to what I saw in the pictures!  Meaning, in the mirror I really didn't like what I looked like, but in the pictures I looked 3 times bigger then what I thought I looked like in the mirror!  Almost what they say anorexic people see, but opposite!  That is when I decided I needed to approach my weight more from a mental or head side as much as I needed to approach it just by eating clean etc.  So I found a weight counselor and started going to her and not only that, but my amazing friend Stefanie who has like every health degree and nutritional degree possible is helping me all from the goodness of her heart!  She hasn't even been helping me with the eating as much as the getting myself organized and other aspects...and I can not tell you how much those 2 things have helped me!  So here I am now 2 and a half months in...feeling better than I have ever felt in my life!  I am 40 pounds away from my goal weight on which I want to be at by July 8th (which is my 30th birthday)  And I believe now that I feel my life is more in order, that once we start trying to get pregnant again, that I will be the healthiest I have been in years and my pregnancy will be that much better with all my weight gone!  I am just so thankful that God gave me the courage to actually do this and believe I could!  I now eat like a regular person...I don't sneak food anymore and I have desert or something sweet (in which I have never admitted to anyone until recently...that I am a sweets lover) every single time I want it!  But instead of eating the whole thing or 3 pieces of cake...I just have a few bites or half!  I truly feel like I have changed nothing!  I am beyond blessed and thankful to all the people helping me with this and understanding how I work!  I know this was a long post, but I am just so excited to be blogging again!  This blog is going to just be a about a little bit of everything...whatever I might be thinking about!  Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a blessed day!

My NEXT BIG goal!

Well hello there everyone!  It has been way to long since I have posted anything...and it is definitely time to start back strong!  I saw that my last post was may 20th, which was one day after my final weigh in with the biggest loser!  Well I wanted to update everyone on how I was doing with my weight loss and my next goal!  Well I stayed going strong after the biggest loser ended!  I began Jamie Eason's Live fit trainer (which is amazing) and was going to the gym 5 days a week!  I got through phase one great and then the first week of phase 2 for some reason my husband and I decided I should get a job(don't ask me why we think this is a good idea) Luckily I only got a temporary position until Aug. 3rd, bc I am of coarse going to continue being a stay at home mother again after that!  Anyways it was super hard to fit in workouts...I had to wake up by 4:30 in order to go to the gym...which that happened I think twice!  Needless to say I started to get off track!  But I am back on track and in no way disappointed!  I have gained about 6 pounds back, but no inches or sizes!  I am so excited for what I have chosen as my next weight loss challenge to help me get closer to my goals!  Another thing that got me off track was the fact that Jonathan and I have been trying to get pregnant again!  I have been so caught up in that and the fact that I'm not pregnant yet that I feel like I put my weight loss to the side for some odd reason!  Not anymore!  I decided so that I wouldn't let it stress me out (not getting preg right away)  I was going to choose something to train for...which will help me get closer to my goal, get my mind off of getting pregnant, and then if in the process we get pregnant...who hoo!  I'm just not going to let it consume me as much as It was!  The Lord has a plan for us...and when and if it is time...I will be pregnant again:)  Anyways....at first i decided I was going to just train for another full marathon...the route 66 marathon in Tulsa on Nov. 18th, but instead I decided on 2 goals and the first one is on Sept. 22nd...it's the Redman triathlon!  I will be training for the Olympic Triathlon which is 0.9 mile swim, 24.9 mile bike ride, and a 6.2 mile run!  I know this is going to be super tough, but I see absolutely no reason I would not be able to achieve this goal (except for getting pregnant)  As you all know...I train to finish and to compete against no one but myself, so the fact that it will probably take me 3 times as long as others means ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to me!  Now my next goal is a HUGE goal and if I don't begin my training today...there is NO WAY it will even be possible!  It is the Half Iron man Triathlon, 1.2 mile swim, 55.9 mile bike ride, and 13 mile run!  Now this one is 18 weeks away and it would be super tough, and honestly I think I would probably not finish in enough time to even have a time (I would be disqualified), but again to me....I don't care...as long as I finish!  So anyways those are my goals for getting back on track with my weight loss and getting back on the work out train!  I am so super pumped about all of this and am so excited!  I truly believe anything is possible....you just have to work for it!  Love you all so much and as always thank you so much for your help and encouragement with my weight loss!

Side view before final weigh in!

Steppin on the scale one last time!

Last weigh in until the next biggest loser!

haha....just finished my final weigh in!

FINAL WEIGH IN!

Well it has been a long 11 weeks, but I am so excited to share with you the final results in my FIRST step towards my body transformation!  I have decided to call it that now instead of weight loss because that is what I want to do....transform my body to something I truly NEVER thought was a possibility!  So as you might know from reading my posts on FB or from my past blogs, yesterday was my final weigh in for the OKC Biggest Loser contest... it was an 11 week contest which began March 3rd and ended yesterday May 19th!  I began the contest one week late on March 10th, but had began blogging again and ready to lose weight March 3rd, but did not start the contest till the following week(I didn't know about it)  But my final results were from March 10th till May 19th....10 weeks I lost 32.8 pounds...and since March 3rd I have lost a total of 36.8 pounds.....which takes me to 53.2 pounds away from my goal weight, and from March 13th -May 18th I have lost a total of 29 inches and gone from a size 20 to now I am currently in a 14, but only a week or 2 away from a comfortable size 12!  I am here to tell you it is possible to get to where you want to be with your weight loss guys!  I HAVE NOT been close to this size since high school and beginning of college!  Seriously I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS!  In high school... when I think I looked pretty good weight wise(of coarse still thought I was fat)  I was a size 10 or 12...and that was weighing I think about 160 pounds...so I feel so close!  I can't even begin to tell you how UNREAL I feel...I truly believe anything is possible!  I always looked at my horrible love handles, my stomach....and my HHHHHOOOOORRRRRIIIIIBBBLLLLLEEEE arms and always thought...ok when I lose weight these will look better, but I will obviously have to get some kind of plastic surgery to ever make them look decent!  Totally NOT TRUE!   I have seen people from blogs, people that helped with the biggest loser, and many youtube videos of people that don't need any of that, that were quite a bit bigger than I was!  My goal has never been to get in a bikini in the summer, or be able to run in shorts and a sports bra...mainly because I just thought it was not even a possibility, but now I KNOW I will soon do both!  I just simply wanted to be a smaller size and comfortable in my clothes and my own skin again!  But now I BELIEVE IN MYSELF and that I can get there!  A tummy tuck does not have to be the answer...YOU are the answer...you have to get up and work for it!  It's not going to get there by doing nothing...I have learned you can not lose weight by just wanting to lose weight...you actually have to eat healthy and work out!  Fad diets are not the answer!  I am so pumped because tomorrow I start a new work out plan!  I am going to do the Jamie Eason 3 phase live fit trainer!  It is going to help me continue to eat healthy, build muscle, and continue losing weight!  Last night after my final weigh in we had people over to to kind of celebrate, and for an excuse to have a party...anyways Jonathan and I decided we were not going to drink, but I had decided I would let myself eat a hot dog, some chips, and just kind of munch of the food that we had during the party....guys....I DON'T WANT TO ANYMORE!  I feel like there is something seriously wrong with me...haha  ME Brittany Cramer...queen of disgustingly bad for you food!  I ate 2 bites of a hot dog and threw it away...maybe a handful of chips...like seriously there is NOTHING in me that wants to eat unhealthy or at that ever drink alcohol that much again!  I mean we rarely drink anyways, but at a fun party like last night we always would!    I  again just want to thank every single one of you for reading my blog or fb statuses, commented on a photo or post, or even just liking something I post....I promise you .....that IS what has gotten me to where I am right now!  Thank you guys all again so much for your love and support...I still have a bit to go, but I know I am going to get there....thank you all again!  This pic is My first weigh in March 10th and before my final weigh in May 19th!

Only 2 more weeks for BIGGEST LOSER!

Hello wonderful blog!  I have not been keeping up as much as I wish I was, but I have been busy with school etc., but after this week the semester is over(THANK GOODNESS!)  Well this past week was such a great week!  First of all, last Sunday the 29th I completed my first FULL MARATHON!  WOO HOO!  It was AMAZING!  I crossed the finish line at 6 hours and 31 minutes...yes I said 6 hours and 31 minutes....I ran every single step of it as well!  Obviously I'm not a fast runner....but my goal was to simply finish...and run the entire time!  It was truly the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life (maybe giving birth naturally was a little tougher), but crazy hard!  I just still can't believe I actually did it!  Well actually I can, bc I worked very hard for 6 months for it!  Thank goodness 4 months into my training I got my mind right and decided it was time to start eating healthy as well so I can lose some LBS!  This past weigh in on the 5th went really well!  I had been pretty stressed out the last couple week because I was clearly at a Plateau, which is not fun!  I was sticking at 194lbs for a good 3 weeks!  I wasn't gaining any at all, but was getting so frustrated because no more was coming off!  I knew at some point I would hit a plateau...I just was hoping it was after the Biggest Loser!  But after some change up and lots of hard work this week I lost 5 pounds putting me at 189 pounds!  OMG....I can not believe I weigh 189 pounds!  I know I still have a long way to go, but I have not been this low since before I was pregnant with Madi Rae, and honestly....long before I was pregnant with her!  Until I think it was 2 weeks ago I had been in 2nd place in the biggest loser competition the entire time...and only losing by a small percentage, but now after my 3 week plateau I think I am in 5th or 6th...and you know what....THAT'S OK!  Saturday was the first morning I woke up realized I weighed 31 pounds less than I did barely 2 months ago...and I decided I was already winning...and at that...The Biggest Loser Winner!  I know it's super corny, but seriously I truly never thought I would actually be at this point!  31 pounds lighter?  I truly believe I can still win the competition, but really either way it makes no difference to me!  Of coarse a cruise with my handsome husband would be amazing and is MUCH NEEDED, but man I am on my road to my goal!  Better yet...Jonathan and I have decided when I hit 160 we are going to start trying for another little Cramer!  I told him I just want to know that I am comfortably with my eating and working out and know I will continue it throughout the pregnancy!  I CAN'T WAIT!  On that exciting note of bringing another baby our family I am going to say Goodnight and LOVE you all and am so thankful for you ALL!