ABSOLUTELY NO EXCUSE!

There is no reason I should EVER be over weight again our no be able to lose all my weight! I just bought the ziploc zip and steam bags and tons of fresh veggies...asparagus(my favorite), broccoli,brussel sprouts, and corn....and got lots of salmon and chicken and I'm going to pre package them all in the zip and steam bags and take them to work! Oh my goodness are you kidding me? No cooking involved...just a little microwave steam! Listen guys...through away all of your can veggies and go get fresh one....look st the 380 mg of sodium in the canned green beans...and fresh ones have 7mg...seriously..CRAZY! Stop eating the processed crap and get the real deal! So excited! Love you all!

This is healthy?

I just made lots of fruit kabobs to put in bags and take as a little snack at work...and of my goodness to me it looks like a cheat meal it is so delicious....i can't believe something this delicious and amazing is healthy...thanks bodybuilding.com...and JNL!

2 a.m. workout!

1 mile run...24 flights of stairs...75 squats, jumping jacks, and high knees....WOOOOOO feeling GREAT!

Biggest loser weigh in 3 and week number 4!

Hello there friends! Well it seems like it has been a while...but I'm here to post about this past weeks weigh in! It went really well ...i was hoping for a little higher number, but in no way an disappointed! So the week before last I weighed in at 205.4 pounds...and saturday I weighed st an even 203lbs! WOO HOO!  I am very satisfied and excited about my number! I know it could be because I had a great number the week before, but my whole goal each week is at least NO GAIN!  We do not have a weigh in this saturday which I was really bummed about, but that just gives me an extra week to get a great number for the next weigh in!  I have been stressing a little but lately about my running...the marathon is a month away and I have not ben able to run much at all lately due to all the sudden not being able to breath:( I set out for an 18 mile ruin last week and only ran 2 and walked 8 more!  I have gone to the doctor and he gave me an inhaler, but it has not helped at all.  I have decided at the least I will walk it! Its kind of a huge bummer considering I have been training for 5 months now, but right now the most important thing is me getting healthy...and if I walk the while thing instead of run...so be it...its better than not doing it at all! Anyways I am so pumped about my weight loss....i am down 2 full sizes and 5 pounds away from pre molly mae weight and only 8 pounds away from my wedding weight (still very over weight, but still exciting milestones) I'm not gonna lie...when I hit my wedding weight in putting on my wedding dresses and taking a pic in it!haha...i know in weird but oh well! Well as always I love you all and am so greatful for your support!

Size large!

So I can't believe what just happened!  I just went shopping for a dress because one out my closets friends trisha (love you pretty) we are celebrating her birthday Saturday night.  Well I have no clothes that fit so I thought I would hed to the mall.  Idecided to go to dillards first because I have not fit in anything but plus size there in alllllooooonnnngggg time...but I just thought I would look.  Not only did I find a dress...but it was a large!  I know that is still a big size and all, but going from not fitting in anything there...to skipping the xl and getting a large is huge for me!  Also I went to old navy alot because they carried xxl and 18's and 20's... Those were the sizes I wore there.  I now have bought size large and 16's there! I just can't believe this! Even though I have so much more to go I feel better than I have in years! Thank you all for your support!

Side view..

My cute little rugrats snuck in...

Day 8 of insanity...week 2 of biggest loser

2ND Oklahoma BIGGEST LOSER weigh in...YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT!

I have been so excited to write this post since I weighed in at noon...so I could share with you all my great success of the week!  So remember last Saturday I weighed in at 216.8 lbs and the Saturday before (March 3rd) I weighed in at 220.8 lbs well my official weigh in today was 205.4 lbs...OMG that is 11.4 lbs THIS WEEK and 15.4 since March 3rd!  I can't believe...I have worked so hard for all those pounds!  To make things even better...This week I lost 5.3% of my body weight...which means I won the most lost this week by 1.2%!   AAAAAAHHHHHHHH.....I can't believe I am doing this....I can't believe this time I am actually getting to where I want to be.  I have eaten so clean this week and really stayed focused on working out...and my eating!  I know I have said this before, but I really would LOVE to win 1st place and get the cruise and all, but say I didn't I would still be so proud of myself for as hard as I'm working and going to continue to work!  I have big plans guys....and it's not going to stop with getting to my goal!  I am so thankful for all of your help and encouragement...I LOVE IT it's what keeps me going!  I am about to finish my first week of insanity....it is crazy...and the boot camp I do after the weigh in is like no other I have EVER DONE...and I think I have done 3....none were worth the money, but this one DEFINITELY is!  I love you all and am so excited and motivated for my weigh in next week!  WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOO!

Theres always temptations!

Life is full of temptations....you just have to learn how to say no! Which is what I did last night when all this food was at work!  Honestly...it want even that hard!

Another wonderful day!

Well guys...I am now on day 13 since I last started blogging...but day 4 for the biggest loser...and let me just tell you...life is AMAZING! I get so mad at myself for all my old horrible eating habits...like I never felt good..the food wasn't even that great, but now oh my goodness I feel so alive (i now it sounds dorky..but seriously) my energy level it's at an all time high. Working out and eating right is not an option anymore...it's a for sure thing. No more excuses like I don't have time...i don't have much time the days I work...but I make it happen anyways!  I feel like anything is possible...like there is absolutely no way I won't get to my goal!  I can't wait for my weigh in on saturday...bc I'm positive it's going to be a big number!  I started insanity yesterday..so today is day 2 and oh my goodness it is so hard...but there is absolutely no possible way I am not doing it everyday I'm suppose to for 60 days! Why not? Well guys as always thank you so much for all your support...i love you all so much and your help and support is what is making this happen!

First weigh in for oklahoma biggest loser!

First OFFICIAL Biggest Loser weigh in!

So today was the day...and I was so nervous!  It was my first official weigh in for Oklahoma Biggest loser!  It was so exciting and I am so happy I was able to enter the competition!  I am a week behind everyone, but that means nothing to me!  I am not STOPPING!  My official weigh in was 216.8!  I truly believe I am going to win! I am so determined!  There is also a boot camp right after that I payed extra to do every Saturday after the weigh in!  It was pretty hardcore!  When I got home I went and walked a mile, sprinted a soccer field then would do 10 burpees!  I repeated this 5 times....it hurt!  When I got home I did the shake weight...YES...the shake weight for the 6 minutes it says to do it for!  That thing is pretty hardcore.  I truly am treating this as if I just got kicked off the ranch and am trying to win the at home prize!  I believe I can win....and of coarse I want to win the cruise.....but man I just want to win to win....to be healthy....to change my life for the better!  While I was doing the boot camp which is at the Oklahoma Science Museum, which is where the weigh ins are held....Jonathan and the girls played and walked around!  After we got in the car I just started crying....I told Jonathan I know this is it!  I have never had this feeling before....this time I AM DOING IT!  I am going to lose my weight and get healthy!  It's not like the first time I started my blog....THIS IS IT!  This is the day I take my life back!  When I was at the boot camp I wanted to just keep pushing and pushing myself....and that is what I did!  If we were hold or doing a certain exercise for 30 seconds....I just kept telling myself it's 30 seconds....that's NOTHING!  People probably think I am crazy because I breath pretty loud and sometimes I grunt (yeah I know embarrassing) but I can't help it.....I'M PUSHING MYSELF!  I am so thankful and excited for this opportunity and all of your support!  Please stick with me through this....all my official weigh ins are going to be the ones on Saturdays at the biggest loser thing!  The final weigh in is May 19th and I want tons of people to come!  I am confident I will do great!  Thank you all again for your support!  LOVE YOU!

Oklahoma's Biggest Loser!

SO....I am so proud to say....that I just officially registered for Oklahoma's Biggest Loser challenge!  I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!  Jonathan and I were on fb late last night watching the KONY2012 video(if you have not watched it please do...we bought out kit last night) and on his news feed there was a link the Oklahoma biggest loser page....onehealthybodbiggestloser.com/contest!  Anyways we got on and looked at the info.  Last week was the first official weight (which I missed), but that isn't going to stop me.  I called the phone number this morning to make sure I could still register and he said I could!  I am so pumped!  The final weigh in is May 19th and the 1st place winner receives a Royal Caribbean Cruise , $500, and a bunch of other awesome prizes!  You guys...I could totally win this!  I don't see any reason I can't!  Jonathan and I already have a schedule for me worked out so that I can go hard!  I'm looking at it this way....this is as close to the biggest loser I will ever get!  The prize will be amazing, but not as amazing as the beginning to my weight loss!  I obviously don't intend on losing 100 pounds in the next 2 and half months, but it will be an amazing kick start to my weight loss!  Every Saturday at noon are the weight ins...at the Oklahoma Science museum.  You where a sports bra and shorts and from the looks of it you weigh on a stage and they take a picture of you!  I know I can do this and I know I can win!  I am going to treat this as if I was on the actual Biggest Loser TV show!  So here is what I need from all of you....SUPPORT...WORDS OF ENGORGEMENT, and as much advice, tips, and ideas as you can give me!  Thank you all for your support!  Love you guys!

March 6th

I just want to be honest!

So I was talking to my friend Denise tonight and we were just talking about food...and she asked me what was the thing I struggle with most about food? I just laid it all out there and I thought I would share it with all of you! It's not a pretty sight...and it's actually humiliating...but it's the reasons I have gotten to be so overweight! My friend trisha wrote me some helpful info...to just not keep anything bad in the house...well we don't! My husband is a healthy eater and it's hard fire him to say no to things...so we just dont even by them. So that is why I think my husband always wondered how I could not be losing weight bc from what he saw and what I told him I was always eating pretty healthy! Well I wasn't! All I did was secretly eat! If I ate breakfast with the girls...maybe a bowl of cereal...no matter what... if I was hungry or not when we got in the car after I dropped them off at school I would go through a fast food place...not only get a breakfast sandwich, but a meal.  I would eat fast food sometimes 2 or 3 times a day! I dont know why I did...i just did! Even if we had just spent $300 on groceries I would still go get something horrible for me....and I always felt sick from it! I never really even enjoyed it! I might stop by seven eleven and get 2 different types of candy bars....and eat them both! I dont know why either...i just did it! I know it sounds disgusting but it's the reason I got to the point I am at now! I dont want to be here anymore and never again! I always told myself...i will never allow myself to get the big...and if I do I will do something about it! Well I'm here...and if I dont change now in 6 months I'm not going to weigh 220 anymore...i will weigh 240! I dont want that! I'm just taking it one day at a time.  I an on day number 3 and I know this is a long process, but I'm in it for the long haul! Thank you all!

My yummy snack at work!

Daily pics starting today!

A new day!

Well it's day #2 of my new journey and let me say......I FEEL AMAZING!  I just don't understand why I do this to myself?  Eating healthy makes you feel so clean and wonderful!  You have so much more energy and you don't have to feel guilty about it!  Jonathan and I get the Runners World magazine every month and the one we just received is about weight loss...and in it I read an article on how a guy lost his 100+ pounds.  Pretty much he just said every meal he had he tried to make it 50/50...50% whatever and 50% vegetables.  Then for snack he always had a fruit with something...maybe string cheese and an apple or even yogurt and some berries!  That is what I have been trying to do today!  I am anxious to see how tonight goes because I have to work 7p.m. to 7 a.m. and I always get confused on my eating.  I think I am going to try and eat around 8 when I get there...then a  few small snacks throughout the night..unless anyone else has an idea of how I should do it?  Thank you all as usual for all your support...of and by the way I weighed in yesterday (I am going to do them on camera like I use to I just forgot) and my official starting weight is 220.8 pounds!  You want to know why I am ok with that?  Because that is the last time I will EVER see that number....and I'm serious this time!  Love you all and hope you have a wonderful Sunday enjoying this beautiful weather!

They made my day!

I was crying so I look a little weird! Such an AMAZING day!

Inspiration!

So I can't even believe what happened to me today!  Well as you all know I am happily starting up my blog again and btw thank you for all your support, but Jonathan and I had a the deer creek classic 10k this morning!  Right after I finished we went and got water and I looked up and about 10 feet in front of me was Dan and Don Evans from THE BIGGEST LOSER!  I asked Emerald if she could take a picture for me so I walked over to them and just started crying (btw they look UNREAL) I felt like I was seeing something I could be and 2 people that I feel have struggled with the same thing I do!  They were so kind and helpful and were so sincere to me bc they have been where I am today!  They said to friend Dan on fb so they could watch my progress!  I talked to Don a little bit more...He told me the one thing he regretted was letting 20 years go by without doing anything about his weight.  That's what I don't want to happen...that's why I HAVE TO CHANGE NOW!  I let them know about my blog and about my struggles I have had...I started crying again and told them that this is exactly what I needed today...and that they are truly huge inspirations to me!  I feel so blessed to have met them...and call me crazy but I believe it's a sign that this is going to happen this time.  I just have to win my biggest battle....BAD FOOD!  I WILL DO THIS I WILL DO THIS I WILL DO THIS!

I need you all!

So it's 3:34 a.m. and I woke up and I can't handle it anymore!  I am back at my exact weight I started at over a year ago and I am more unhappy now than I was then.  You know I think about starting to blog and then just decide against it, I don't know why at all...I just do.  NOT ANYMORE!  This was how I lost my weight last year, but something clicked off 3 months in and I stopped and I'm not going to lie...I hate myself for that!  I was so excited and determined!  What happen to me?  Please EVERYONE if you once believed in me try to again
because I need you encouragement and help now more than ever.  I am at rock bottom with my weight again and don't want to be here now or ever AGAIN!  I ran 16 miles last Sunday...yes 16...what is wrong with my brain?  All running is is mind over matter!  How can I run 16 miles running 220 pounds plus and not want to eat right?  I always tell Jonathan I don't understand how people get addicted to things bc I just don't have an addicted personality!  AM I KIDDING I am obviously addicted to food!  I feel I have EVERYTHING I have every wanted in life and so much more, except my health...but my health is one of the VERY MOST IMPORTANT THINGS!  Please help me through this process everyone!  All your kind words of encouragement and helpful tips and ideas is what got me through it last year...well I need it again everyone!  PLEASE believe in me and help me through this!  I don't think I am strong enough without the help!  I need exercise Ideas...I need to tone and build my strength!  If you ever believed in me before and followed me before...please do again!  I'm not going to let you or myself down!  I am going to do an official weigh in tomorrow morning...and NO MORE EXCUSES!  I love you all so much and am so thankful for EVERY SINGLE one of you and all your help!